The Inner Self

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Tranfs-FORMED

Unlike Micheal Bay's Transformers (if yu love sci-fi I would be sorry for you if you miss it) no evil Decepticons came to transform my life. But still the tide of time carried me away from my normal self and here I stand transformed. Few of the transformations are as follows...


Starting from the morning.

1. Unlike before, I get up at maximum 8AM.

2. Besides having Oily puri, Crispy dosa with spicy chutney, Garam Garam Idli with sambhar or Poha with lots of peanuts for breakfast I eat cereal or something Sweet with coffee. Aaaaah I know how badly I miss "Ghar ka" or even "Mess ka" breakfast and bullshit they don't serve breakfast in Minsa here. :(

3. I take an elevator to get down unlike before where I used to take steps get down two floors.

4. I ride my cycle to work besides walking to class(Class...I really doubt :D)

5. I cycle on the right side besides walking on the left playing football on the way with all the Cigarette boxes,coke or pepsi or beer cans.

6. I stick to the traffic rules besides breaking them..damn I miss home.

7. I never drive here....damn again...I miss my(wahi ghar ka) opel :(

8. After getting to work(not any more) I check ibnlive.com for half an hour.

8. Unlike before I watch a lot of videos on You-tube, I used to download them from LAN and watch them earlier.

9. I use headphones rather than banging my head to the tunes of my 5.1 speker system...oooo i miss them.

Now the most worst part...
10. I go to the minsa instead of mess ( I prefer mess to minsa).

11. I take pasta/pizza and meat(seldom I know which animal is it) and cattle feed(yaa I am talking about salad), Fruiita Yourghurt instead of "Dahi" with "Chini", bottled water instead of drinking from a BIG JUG without a GLASS(RK's Tradition..idiots broke it and now got glasses instead.)

12. Instead of using my hand I use a knife and a fork to eat (I hate this) and mostly eat alone. If KGP is hearing ..I miss eating with you all and then going to Ratin da(our fruit stall) and driniking a Frooti.

13. My diet now mostly comprises of non spicy, non oily, supposed to very hygenic Italian food which being frank I can say I am starting to dislike. Afterall who doesn't want Aloo parantha for lunch ...oooooo I miss them.

14. Whenever I work in the lab I make a note of every damn thing,starting from various chemicals used to where I put them. (This is one of the good ones.)

15. I speak online to my best buddies rather than sitting at chillies and talking to them while sipping elaichi chai and double anda poch

16. When a few people buzz me, I am really busy working unlike before where I used to buzz people to talk to them.

17. I have hardly 10 mins long conversation with mom and dad unlike before where I used to talk atleast an hour a day.

18. Another good one, I don't waste most of my money and time on the phone.

19. Mostly when I am free I think about some important stuff unlike before where I used to search the LAN for any new movie,video or documentary.

20. When I talk, I use the perfect formal language eg. Can you please do this for me, unlike before where I used to say "Do this for me"

21. I generally don't have an evening snack unlike before where I used to eat samosa,kachori,pav bhaji,paani poori and Rosshhhoogullaah (aaaah my mouth is watering like hell and I gotta eat in the minsa now ...yaak)

22. I don't play TT rather makhau in TT anymore. (someone ready to ping pong ??? buzz me)

23. I am not in a look out for some junior to kick his ass ..(wahi GPL ...am planning to introduce this custom here.)

Following one is the worst thing which I miss.

24. Calling up friends to decide where to eat...billos,sahara,LS or Mid-Town(all of them are resturants in KGP) and then order one Chicken liver masala, one chiken bharta and tandoori roti without butter and then fight for the last piece and then later fret that one of the three ate the most. style Besides I boost my morale ....saying to myself "Koi naa ...har K***E ka ek din aata hain "(every d** has it's day)and then walk with lagging legs to the Minsa again ...stand in line, eat the same shitty things again without cribbing about the food because I have got used to it by now.

25. Get home cycling thinking, its cold enough and now tommorow I will definitely buy new Gloves and then just dive into my bed to sleep without watching a movie.


I wonder when will Optimus Prime the good Autobot come to save my world from being TRANSFORMED.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Why,what,who,whom,how,when and ??????

Have you ever had this weird feeling that there are a bunch of questions which seem to have the answer but they still dont have an answer.

I quote "yeh ishq hai kya sabko pata...yeh ishq hain kya kisko pata" (everone knows what love is ...no one knows what love is)

Another example...Someone whom you love asks...Y do you love me ?? you tell her/him you love her/him because they are yours and again a question comes ....why am I yours ??...and you say ..Because I love you ...

There will be hell lot of these to quote....

wait a min WHAT did I want to write ..WHAT am I writing ??

Just wondering about how would the world be without these words....Why, What, Who, Whom, How, When and last but not the least ??

Imagine there wouldn't be any following questions in your mind

Why do I like something or rather Why do I love someone ??
Why do I dont like somone or dont love someone ??
Why does someone love me ??
Why does someone hate me ??
Why are you doing this to me ??
Why are you this bad ??
Why are you this good ??
Why does this happen to me ??
What am I doing with my life ??
What is that I am going to do in future ??
What was that what I did ?? Right or Wrong ??
What am I writing now ?? (I guess crap)
What made her/him do this ??
What the hell earth do you mean ??
What the F**k ??
Who is responsible for this ??
Who gave you the right to say this ??

and blah blah blah..


These are thoughts which had always crossed my mind are crossing my mind and ring bells of chaos in my mind.

So now i really feel what if all Why, What, Who, When, How weren't there. How would the world be ?? The fact that its impossible to have a world without all these is evident because I have used the same Why,What,Who, When, How to write about a world without them.

Now I myself got confused.

Now supposing we have a world without all these .......

then WHAT ??


THEN
What would I be ??
What will I do ??
How will I be feeling ??
How will the world be ??
How will I question ??


and lots of other blah blah blah ...

So the point is to imagine a world without what,why,when,how i have to still think about what,why,when,how.

and theres no answer to this question..or rather
What is the question and what is the answer ?? Even if you have an Answer to a Question why do you still dont't have an Answer or end up having a Question again ?? Or by answering you have raised another Question ??
Was the Question which was put to you was a Question or an Answer ??

Its like this cycle of egg or the chicken continuing ...

So hope now you understand

WHY I quoted...

If you understand

Thats WHY I am confused...